A talk between old friends.(Cameron)

[Aeryn Black]

Aeryn was satisfied with the group session really no one was killed anyway. As Chuckles and Drusilla were led out she stopped the guard who came to bind up Cameron.

"Wait we have a one on one session now can you come back in two hours."

Aeryn told the guards who grumbled., one even swatted at Cameron's head and she sighed as she shook her head and waited for them to leave.

She rolled her eyes as the door closed.

"Alright what's going on really? I mean seriously no psycho bull Sh*T what's going on with you Cameron?

She then shook her head and rubbed her temples as she did she replied.

"Alright what did I do wrong? i know you were studying my technique true you did always get higher marks than i did now spill would ya. We're friends or well I'd hope we still would be despite everything."

[Cameron Hollow]

He took the chance when the guard swatted him to kick out his knee, then follow through with a light kick to hios behind sending him gracefully out the door. Turing back to Aeryn, he smiled, Of coarse we are friends, in a weird way, considering your a Dr, and im your Patient. he smiled, she was still beautiful, even after all that had happened. Aeryn, since i still like you, and your acualy not creul like the rest of these fakes, other than Shalie, im going to tell you, i wasnt evaqluating your technique, i was evaluating you. He looked away from her, it wasd always difficult talking about someone you cared about's problems, especially since he was supposed to be insane. He smiled, it was all so confusing, he wasnt sure how she had split. If it had to do with Chuckles, then he knew that it was based sexualy.. And that was a bad thing. She had known her sister was raped, and had died because of it. She might have split, one is her sadistic side, the other, well it was just prim proper Aeryn... It was all hypothetical, he would have to draw her out, the other side.. The trigure, well, it was probaly.. violent sex.. not exactly something he was in a position to do. Remember how me and you used to talk, about our Childhood, pretend that Group Therapy never happened, what do you remember? about your sister, the pain, the love...

[Aeryn Black]

Aeryn took a seat as she did she was glad there was a couch in the room.

for a moment she kicked her shoes off and stretched her feet.
She then sat for a moment hugging her knees as she did so and laying her head on her knees and looked at him.

"I never did stop truly loving you did you know?"

she asked as she then sighed a moment. She had loved him but she never really told him the whole time they were colleagues and friends.They even for awhile dated and she felt comfortable with him still even as crazy as it sounded.

"You were there for me in the worst time of my life Cameron, My parents as you know they.. They treated us kids like we were show animals, paraded us in front of their friends to show that they were family oriented when in fact they never really cared about us. Renee'.."

she for a moment wiped her eyes as she thought about her sister.

"Renee and i we went to boarding school and why are you asking me to do this? really cameron why i mean it hurts it hurts tto remember . it was my fault that Renee went to that party we had a fight and she went out and she got... she got raped and beaten and they never found the bastard."

She closed her eyes a moment as she did she shook her head.

"His blue eyes, that's all she would say to me.. His eyes.. so blue so very blue."

She began to cry softly a moment as the just shook a moment.

"You know many nights i cried myself to sleep, i lay awake unable to sleep and wondered what she meant, wondered in a sick way how she felt, how it happened and in a way i felt it. We were close Cameron, very close her and I you know.. "

she opened her eyes and looked at him a moment.

"She became catatonic when she found out about the baby, by then she was deteriorating so much her hair went white, her skin so sallow and her hair began to fall out in clumps, Please I can't .. "

she was struggling with this as she was she just looked at him and said softly.

"Remember when i would come over and you held me when i would cry and tell me that someday i'd help someone? Jamie, I'm trying to help her she reminds me so much of Renee you know. same trigger, blue eyes.."

she shook a moment as she then bit her lip. "Like him, like that bastard ,like half the guards eyes here, blue like the color of the sky the color of the baby my nephew's were when Renee died giving him life.

She then hugged her knees harder.

[Cameron Hollow]

He felt for her, but he could have no mercy, this other might destroy her, if she found out.. It would not be good. Walking over and sitting beside her, and putting an arm around her, he silently wished that she would change, so he could remove it... What she said was right on the money, but she had accepted his fake one with no problm, like he wasnt lieing, she could have said somthing, but she said nothing. He thought that the other had wipd it to make her slowly lose all regonition of him. He smied at that thought, you couldn't banish love, he loved her, but things had changed, he killed people, and she helped people, Both led to same place, but hers had more standing. He kissed her lightly, knew he still cared. The guards were probaly watching, but, well, if they tried anything, he had a chain on the wall with their neck's name on it... Aeryn, Im sorry for what we loss, sorry i killed and murdered, So sorry i couldnt be with you.. I loved you too, but, well, if anyone heard that, youd get kicked..But, my Childhood, what i said in Group... That was all lies, but, you didnt correct me.. He saw e cringe when she sat.. It might be bruises.. who knew, Chuckles that sick F*** if he had done anything to hurt him h would finally be leaving this place, in a body Bag. The way he saw it.. he was screwed, why not do some good.. Aeryn, you seemed like you were hurt, i'm sure you cant see them, want me too tell you wat those bruises your hiding are from? He cared for her, didn't want her to be like him, no one deserved to feel nothing, he wanted her to be happy. It might also bring out the Other.... He didnt know what to call it yet, he was sure it would tell him.

[Aeryn Black]

Aeryn was surprised when he kissed her but it felt nice, felt good even and softly kissed him back.

she for a moment didn't care if the world would fall down around them,She didn't care in that moment if she lost her license even. she heard his words and stopped before she went to deepen the kiss between them. She for a moment just lay her head on his shoulder and she just was still.

she then bit her lip as she did she felt something inside her telling her to a lie. She gasped softly as she then looked at him. Moving her head away from him and she felt it deep inside her something laughing telling her to lie to him.

But this is Cameron I won't lie to him I love him.

These were her thoughts as then she tried to understand what was happening. She for a moment just sat there quiet. Then she looked at him her Hazel Brown eyes shining softly a moment.

About a week ago I woke up in my apartment, I don't remember a few hours, I woke up in my apartment and I can't remember what happened. I know that I quit drinking you helped me throught that but next to me was a half drank bottle of Tequila and I was half naked. I don't know why I would do that.. I don't remember coming home even Cameron but I do know the next day I had a intense pain in my head and in other places."

She for a moment was quiet, she just was trying to think and it was getting harder as he was so close. She didn't understand and felt confused. Bruises what bruises? She didn't have any bruises did she? She looked at her arms and there was nothing, There was nothing there at all.

In reality she couldn't see them but there were bruises one on her neck even that had been covered up with makeup,more where she wasn't seeing them, that clothes hid. Even if they were in plain sight she wouldn't be able to see them but feel them she did.

Then slowly she looked at him as she did this time she smiled. her eyes for a moment shifted to a deep brown and she then giggled.

"Your good you know that but you won't get her to remember. She may love you and I might like you damn fine man like yourself should come play with me sometime. But you know poor Aeryn.. Thinks she's so good thinks that all of the people in here can be saved. She still believes she can save you even. Poor deluded foolish girl.

So tell me good doctor how screwed up I am,or tell another lie about your childhood she was so confused when you did that you know. She couldn't admit that you were lying because I told her not to. Why well my silly man because then she could get into alot of trouble you see.. She was protecting you both.

Tell me honestly if you could have us if you knew that she wanted it more than anything would you? I know that she is this prissy virginal person waiting for marriage, waiting for the right guy to come along. When you did she was happy you know, Then you went nuts and she still blamed herself for it. Hell F*** me twice and I'll admit that we've never been all there ourselves you know. Not since we were twelve not since our sister died when we were 16 that really made me able to come to the surface more.

She then shook her head a moment as she did she made a small laugh.

In trying to save every poor pathetic creature on this planet she has lost herself, poetic justice isn't it? Yet she can't save them and she knows it. She knows it and still she tries our girl. Tell me Cameron when you look at her, do you see a poor excuse for a woman? Do you still desire or regret that you never experienced pleasure with us? Because she does, If you decided to right now touch her, She never needs to know about the others."

She then took in a sharp breath as she did she then let her head slump a moment.

[Cameron Hollow]

He looked in interest as she told him what she said.. Which was a lie, she never drank, she wasnt the party type, at all. He smiled as she pulled away, also like her, which was a good sign.. Other places? hmm, hopefuly not bad... He was about to ask where the pain was, when she changed to the other one.. finaly, he hadnt wanted to hurt her. Listening, slowly starting to smile, he finally laughed when she seemed done. At least she was protective.. thats the worse guilt trip ever, i told her it wasnt her, it was my Work, She always came first to me, she was all important.. Never breaking trust, always with her, nothing could have made me stop loving her. He smiled at the Other, laughing. She wasnt just protective, she was almost a refraction of all her fear, pain, from her sisters Death... If you get her into a situation where she gets hurt.. I will kill Chuckles, then i will come for you.. Theres Techniques, painful ones, that break a split personality, im sure that you dont want that to happen to poor Aeryn. To save her, im willing to sell myself, so, lets make a deal. I dont get you fired, you stay out of her mind, and tell me the truth, and i dont end you. He said, in a deep creul voice, the one he udes to get the idea across. He loved Aeryn, This other was ruining her. She had been here for while.. He would never take her, nt with the Other in control... never.. When i look at her, i see the Love of my Live. She was all i needed, all i wanted, When i look at her i see time ost because i lost mself. i see, a beautiful, powerful Woman, that has been through alot. And i am here to help her. I will only touch her, if she wants it, not you, not some f***ed up excuse for a split, I love her too much, It would ruin her Career, so for her... No, never, unless she is sure, then, only if you, are gone.. He had made his choice clear, he hoped so. This split was dangerous, so he had to remove it, or pacify it..

[Aeryn Black]

Evangeline looked at him a moment as she did she replied quietly and with total calm.

Would you protect her? Would you could you? I don't know all I do know is that without me to help her She'd be worse. I have already stopped one other from forming in here. That one.. She was a nightmare.I am not a killer, I am perhaps a whore but at least I don't kill.

Evangeline then got up as she did she looked at him went over and she light up a cigarette and frowned. She looked at the lighter than at him a moment. It was his it had been once and Aeryn had kept it used it thought of him often as she looked at it. His initials were still carved into the bottom of the thing. She ran a fingertip over the symbol of a Black and Silver Dragon.

Disgusting habit I prefer French ones. Vanilla tasted better but i digress. Yes she kept it. She even got a tattoo want to see it? Trust me it's beautiful really Though she never had the heart to finish it you see"

She turned her back and she showed him across the base of her spine. It was a tattoo of a rose and heart. She smiled a moment as she looked over at him.

She was going to brand herself with your name, She did this after.. I thought about finishing it for her, Even allowed myself to feel the pain for it Cameron. She never cried once, never once I won't let her. Even now she's in here and she doesn't see it. I won't let her feel the pain she can't handle it."

She then shook her head.

That would have set him off you know,If he knew.. I hate him and wish he would die and yet, Crave his attention.His laughter makes her nauseous makes her quite ill. what our girl doesn't know.. could fill a encyclopedia Cameron. Do you want to know what really happened that night she blacked out? Do you think you could handle knowing the truth?

She then moved over to him slowly as she did she asked him in a voice full of sadness a moment. She walked with confidence however it was as if she strode with a pep in her step.

Would you snuff me out so easily then? Or would you like it if we were one person again? That she feel the pain and learn to deal with it perhaps, No I don't think she could. I am not going to end up like Renee. I'm not a monster I am trying to protect her Gods knows she needs someone to Cameron.

[Cameron Hollow]

He listened, almost trembling.. That tatoo? The lighter? It was almost too much.. If he snapped, he didnt want Aeryn to get hurt. That was what had lost her once already. He had had enoguh of her Parents, they had pushed him, trying to get him to take her away. they never cared, never had cared.. They had pushed him, to the edge, then right off. Phone calls, Messages, everything. He smield, being a whore could get you into trouble. Imagin her response when she wakes up, and find that she pregnant... But it might be that she has more worries. She wasmore a nut case than him. He had done stuff that people had talked about, she was split in half. Or more, the way she talked.. I will never, ever do anything to hurt her, you, should know that. That lighter, it was my gift to her, shortly before i killed the first one... I love her, and lust for her. Its not easy getting any here, but, it wouldn't be Aeryn, it would be you, sick Whore f***er.. The curves, body, it was all fine, delicious, but he didn't want her when her other would take over. Smiling, he just rested his head back. old friends, and new enemies... well, not really, she was protecting her.. He would have to roll with it, for now.. i do like the Tattoo though, noce touch.. She should finish it, putting her nefews name there.. We both know that shes one of your triggers.. What was her name.... hmm.. Now what was it my little whore? He smiled, mind games, but who could blame him.. But what she had said, something was weird... hmm, yes i do want to know.. But first, tell me, you never told me, in all our time together, what happened at age twelve.. I love you, or Aeryn, so, please tell me. If anything to do with your Father.. well ,you know how i do things. I can handle it, after all, im already crazy am i not? He said the last with a smile. He was really here because he had pleaded guilty on insanity so he didnt get put away for the 40 odd murders and mutilations.. He would had a better time in Prison, more food, and more fun.

[Aeryn Black]

Damien his name was Damien, Aeryn has been looking for him ever since the bastard parents took him sent him away..

Eva's voice shook slightly as she for a moment grew quiet. Her hand shook as she then brought the cigarette up again to her lips then she went and put it out in the ashtray. as she did she took a moment to compose herself.

she looked at him softly a moment as she did she took a calming breath. She for a moment sat down and she traced a finger over the tattoo on his forearm and she then remembered.

I remember when you got this one.. It was graduation day and we were walking the boardwalk and saw a tattoo parlor, We were so young then so in love, we were happy then weren't we?"

"i love you Cameron. She loves you I"d never hurt either of you. I made a deal with the Devil in order to help jamie and to help the others in here. chuckles he, So far he's held to his bargain but I know that.. It hurt alot almost as much as when I was 12."

She took a calming breath a moment as she did she looked at him.

"Our Father in a drunk rage one night raped her, Raped Aeryn she doesn't remember i was formed to protect her from it. i've been here all along just trying to protect her. Trying to keep her sane. She a part of me or i am her whatever it doesn't make a difference I just.. When I was born, she was in such pain. Then when .. It's almost as if we are one person anymore really Cameron, i remember everything though and thought it hurts me to do so, I can't let her hurt from it. If she knew and someday it will happen as i can't always stop the memories.. She'll really wish she was gone.


I'll let you talk to Aeryn now if you want, I don't know about sleeping with you without letting her enjoy it as well that would not be fair to either of you or me. She has no idea and i can't tell her cause if i did if she knew she was so messed up. Be good to her and I'll make you a deal. I will stop sleeping with Chuckles and she is yours if you want her. Only yours, I will stop having sex, I will stop it but you have to tell her how you feel let her decide if it's worth it. To give you a heads up though.. She'd die for you so i think it'd be worht it. Also you might recall that she isn't just a psychologist you know.. She could do other things if it came down to it .

She'd choose you no matter what and that alone should tell you how much she loves you. She hates you hurt, i feel it she cries and I take the pain away. Hold her, love her and I'll stop. I'll stop I won't come out to play or try not to."

She looked deeply into his eyes.

"i swear if I do you can try that thing you wrote a thesis on and try and get rid of me Cameron, i won't even fight you."

[Cameron Hollow]

He knew what she was, she was a sift for all things evil, painful. He wished now he hadn't stopped from killing her Father, if he ever got, out, first thing on his list.. But first, he had to save Aeryn, anything he could do, he would. He sighed as he looked at her. Yes, that tattoo, it was always the impulses, he had been in love, had loved, had felt her pain. Her father had always looked in disgust, now he knew why. If he saw that f***er again, it would be like he was insane.. And not a good thing for him. Same with Chuckles, he might be ex- marine, but he would show that fucker what happened when you were possesed with Hate, Love, and protective.... He would tear that man a new one.. Maybe he would, a tranq, with less than normal, would make that man sleepy, victim, to him, h wasnt above a little rape... hmmm.. sounds good. Looking at Aeryn he answered finaly. The Tattoo has helped reminding me, i loved you, more than i did most. When i succumbed to the urges to test what those people had told me, i kept off from raping for you, i didnt want anyone to feel that, never. What that man has put people through I will get back at him. If you stp sleeping with him, ill protect Jamie when i can. take away all pain from Aeryn, and make her whole, No Chuckles, a bit less pain, save Jamie, even better.. But really, what did Aeryn go through that night? he looked into her eyes, so beautiful, so pretty, they always were the best part of her.

OOC sorry, muse is gone lol

[Aeryn Black]

Evangeline for a moment was quiet then she kissed his nose a moment.

" I swear I won't go to him willingly again Cameron. Neither of us will. The truth is she had a session with him and the guard went outside and she went to ask him the normal questions you know, Tell me about your family all that crap we both hated asking. "

She for a moment just then kissed along his chin a moment. She lay her head on his chest and she said softly.

"The minute the door closed. She started to ask the questions, then got a stupid idea she was going to stop him from hurting Jamie. She offered a trade of sorts. In hindsight she should have known better really. She is after all a doctor but it's not her fault I won;t lie to you, a part of me has wondered what he would be like. Wondered what Renee had gone through. In my mind it was a way to understand my sister. To understand Jamie too. It's not her fault, Not Jamie or Renees or even Aeryn's though she offered him a deal. He would not hurt anyone else, He would not kill or even touch another woman in here and she'd let him . "

She looked down a moment and closed her eyes as she did a tear fell down her cheek. She just for a moment caught her breath.

"Promise me you won't hold any of them responsible for what I am about to tell you, It would kill her and me if you did. Chuckles I offered him a deal of sorts. At the time, I was hurt all the pain inside me I needed something. Someone to , I was afraid very afraid but also intrigued at what he was about trying to figure him out. Aeryn decided at the last moment to just offer the deal and expect him to say no. But he didn't we underestimated him big time."

"You know Aeryn is a fighter, really she is but and this is my fault for not stopping it quicker one minute they were talking the next he had us bent over against the wall filling us up, He doesn't realize that he was our first you know if he did it would be worse you know. He didn't care, he wasn't gentle but she liked it a bit. at first he was talking so dirty she wasn't thinking of him."

She went quiet a moment as she did she tried to think. Parts of that day were a little hazy for her as well.

"We, rammed us hard, deep violently and the pain at first was horrible but then something snapped and I was allowed to come out now, in a way I have been somewhat dormant this whole time as she's not needed me to protect her memories for awhile now. I came out as he finished the first time, the second time he threw her on the bed and went at it. Then the guard came in the same guard that interrupted therapy today with you three and he.. I was plugged up both ends and after..

I went home aching and took a long shower and cried and tried to wash him off of me. it wasn't rape exactly as she asked for it but it wasn't what we wanted entirely, who I should say but . I was scared so numb really in a weird way and I got dressed, left my knickers there actually didn't even bother and went to the closest Bar I could find and bought a bottle of Tequila and by the time i got home i drank a quarter of it. I passed out after half of it was gone and woke up, At first even I thought it had been a dream but you usually star in those. Anyways It didn't all hurt really. He wasn't gentle but it didn't hurt and actually kinda liked the little bit of pain it may sound sick but it felt, nice to not be so in control.

She then closed her eyes a moment as she did she wrapped her arms around his waist and just lay her head there on his chest.

I'm so sorry i didnt want to tell you that, didn't want you to hate me now. To see me now as a whore see her as a whore but I won't ever lie to you I promised you that so long ago and I've never broken my word and won't or well she told you that anyways sometimes I don't know where i begin and Aeryn ends, i just know right now shes having this wonderful dream I have her dreaming about the first time you kissed eachother, she dreams of that alot. I don't sleep or dream really just i'm there. And though people would say i'm crazy I'm not crazy at all. That's the messed up thing i'm a split and I am sane, she doesn't know i exist though.

[Cameron Hollow]

He looked at Aeryn, or Evangeline as she said her slit was called. This all so much to take in, her slit, her feelings, and Chuckles... If she didnt want him to, he wouldnt, but how can you trust a crazy man, he didnt, and he felt Chuckles was u to something. He would robaly not rest until he had someone as crazy as him. In a way, Cameron wasnt as much crazy.. as not discilined, when he was angry, it exloded, and hard shi, any problem, it all came bubling up, realeasing in the many ways he had heard.. The freaks, the creeps and the rapists had taught him stuff, it was one of the ways he had helped them deal with it... When he kissed his nose he smiled. Most sensative art of him, it bled at theleast provacation.


If that is what you want, i wont hurt them.. However, you know, if i sna at the stuid Hack of a doctor, chances are ill make a move on Chuckles quickly if i get a chance when the rage is on.. Anything i do isnt a reflection of how Aeryyn failed, or how she didnt do enough, its a reflction of how I, as a Doctor, found a relaease for everything i could do. The stress, i know it builds up, ive feltit, not sure how Aeryn dealswith it, but i, well, i did things to help me, music, ect, but i cant do that here, so thats why i snap more often.. He lookmed into her eyes as she rested a second. If there was any hope ofhim getting out, it was probaly with her. On the other hand, so far he hadnt been arrested forhis killings, or violent acts, maybe he wasbetter in here. As she continued on with her story of that day he turned to her, holding her close.

He looked at her, she seemed so pure, yethe k nw what had happened, Though, the fact she liked it a bit.. Staretling... If he hadnt killed those people, he would probaly be stil lwith her, who knows, maybe she would be type of person that likes a bit of hard playing... But getting away from that thought, he looked down on her, smiling, and said, his eyesgetting soft.Nothing you do could makeyou seem like a whore, you were forced into that, if you had tried to stop, he would havejust hurt yuou more, the fact your guard joined in, well, next time i see him, ill make sure to share some of my love... But, no matter what, i love you, and nothing could change that un less i acualy go full scale creeping crazy, Mr. Chuckles an example. He smiled at her, she was stil lthe same, afraid, and innocent, just slightly spoiled by a Man, but that had always been the truth.. I love you Aeryn, Evageline, or who ever you are, i always have, and always will. Nothing will change that..

[Aeryn Black]

Eva relaxed a moment as she listened to him talk her head was lying on his chest as she for a moment closed her eyes and she nodded when it was appropriate. His last words she opened her eyes slowly and looked up into his brown eyes.

I love you and I want us to be together, I never stopped that is we never did and.. Cameron theres no one else for me but you and no before you tell me your not worth it, I think no feel you are worth my time, worth my love for you. It's never changed and even grown somehow truth is,"

she then just tried to get herself together a moment as she did she sat up and just looked at him.

" If you told me right now we had a chance, I'd go anywhere you wanted, I would be yours only yours, I am only yours Cameron I've missed you and cried over you and got angry and I want there to be more than just words, i'm ready for whatever you'll give me the hell to anyone else they be damned as far as I am concerned."

She then asked softly.

"Will you make me yours? Please please don't deny what we both want not now please Romeo" She said using her nickname for him.

(sorry it's short but getting back into this,hope you can work with it)