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Post by Aeryn Black on Apr 27, 2009 9:50:21 GMT -7
Aeryn was thinking about the way things were so unordinary lately, here she was going to have a session with her friend, she looked forward to the friendship part but not to the part where she didn't want to make Jamie feel retched. She went to her room and politely knocked on the door.
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Post by Jamie Smith on Apr 27, 2009 13:39:50 GMT -7
Jamie sat with one leg tucked underneath her as she studied three pictures. One of her giant black horse, Sultan, and two others. One of her dog name Nut and then the two animals together. She smiled slightly before jumping at the sound of knocking at the door. She had forgotten that it was her one on one day with Aeryn. "Go ahead and come in," Jamie said, starting to tuck the pictures under her pillow....
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Post by Aeryn Black on Apr 27, 2009 18:17:54 GMT -7
Aeryn came in as she did for a moment she was quiet then she smiled.
Alright how are things? She asked. The tape recorder in her pocket now recording everything she would speak to Jamie about.
So any concerns or anything you wish to enlighten me on or share with me? I know that things have been a little different lately care to tell me what your feeling about him?
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Post by Jamie Smith on Apr 27, 2009 18:33:28 GMT -7
Jamie finished tucking the pictures under her pillow quickly. "Alright I guess..." Jamie hesitated before saying: "No, not really." Her mind shrank away from the idea of talking about Chuckles. She was still confused and uncomfortable about the whole situation, but had decided to keep that to herself. Jamie sighed a little. feeling a little awkward without knowing why.
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Post by Aeryn Black on Apr 27, 2009 18:39:47 GMT -7
Aeryn just nodded as she went over and she looked at Jamie.
if you need to and when you do let me know I have a good ear to listen to you know. Anyways i am suppose to ask how your progress is doing, after the other day I think we are making a small amount of headway anyways. The kids they really liked you and it was fun hanging out last week. We're gonna have to do that again sometime. She said as she tried to lighten the situation a bit.
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Post by Jamie Smith on Apr 27, 2009 18:53:55 GMT -7
Jamie nodded. "I know...I just really don't know how I feel about..him," Jamie said after a pause. "I would love to," she said, brightening up a little as she made room on the bed for Aeryn by scooting over a little. Jamie tucked a lock of hair behind her ear,trying to think of something to say but pulling a blank. She tried not to think of Chuckles, but more and more often, he was popping up more and more frequently in her mind. "How is your cold?" Jamie asked quietly, remembering their last 1o1....
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Post by Aeryn Black on Apr 28, 2009 8:39:18 GMT -7
Aeryn smiled as she did she nodded. then she said quietly.
better not really a cold i think maybe i had gotten food poisoning, couldn't keep anything down but it's a little better now. Truth was she needed to go and get checked out by the hospital wing but had yet to do so.
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Post by Jamie Smith on Apr 28, 2009 9:51:27 GMT -7
"Oh.." Jamie said, a little worried about the doctor. "I hope that it's better soon..." she said, trying to smile a little. "How's Cam and Kids?" she asked curiously.
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Post by Aeryn Black on Apr 28, 2009 11:51:30 GMT -7
Aeryn relaxed a moment and smiled. they were her absolute subject as she did grin she for a moment felt a little queasy but she bit back the urge to vomit.
Good, The kids are good and..
Aeryn smiled ear to ear. I think things with Cameron will be alright i mean, we.. That is I know that nothing is carved in stone but we made love She said with a huge smile and for a moment a dreamy look in her eyes.
(Actuality they hadn't yet that is. But this was where it was heading.)
I'm not sure if it means we're together together I want it to mean that but you never know with Cameron and.. Well I would have before but now it's different it's.. He's the same really just the situation I suppose you'd say, He was really sweet and gentle and made me feel increadible.Everything a woman's first time should be really. " Aeryn was literally on cloud nine.
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Post by Jamie Smith on Apr 28, 2009 16:55:07 GMT -7
Jamie quirked a little smile. "Well..umm.. I'm glad you enjoyed it I guess.." she said quietly, feeling awkward. She had no clue what to say...what WAS she supposed to say? "I'm glad that you two are..finding a way," she said, smilng a little more.
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Post by Aeryn Black on Apr 28, 2009 17:11:50 GMT -7
Aeryn just smiled a moment. Yeah.. Oh..
She looked at Jamie a moment and then she shook her head and looked at her a moment.
i'm sorry you just asked and.. It's alright I mean I am happy we are happy yes,.
She then just for a moment was quiet.
anyways otherwise everything has been alright i guess. She said as she tried to think of something to say.
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Post by Jamie Smith on Apr 29, 2009 10:26:59 GMT -7
Jamie laughed a little. "Yes, I ask and you told me..so it isn't really your fault.." Jamie said, grinning a little. She sighed a little bit, almost wishing for a moment that she could have had an experience like that for her first time... Jamie blinked back tears for a moment before glancing over Aeryn to see if she had noticed....
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Post by Aeryn Black on Apr 29, 2009 10:34:58 GMT -7
Aeryn noticed the tears but then was quiet not sure what to talk about so she just rubbed Jamies's back in a comforting manner and tried to make her friend feel better.
I'm feeling a little weird not you or what were talking about but like i forgot something hmm?
She then for a moment unconscionably rubbed her stomach as she went and for a moment looked out the small window in the room.
It's odd my cold is better but usually when I vomit it's not painful or associated with the usual migraine here lately. Just I think it's the stress getting to me is all, With everything and what would you like to do today if you could do anything what would it be?"
She asked out of curiousity.
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Post by Jamie Smith on Apr 29, 2009 10:47:29 GMT -7
Jamie nodded a little, a worried look on her face. "That's weird.." she said, feeling lame that she couldn't come up with anything to say. She was truly worried about her friend but didn't know what to say. Jamie thought about the question... "I don't know really..Go ride Sultan again or..go drive my car as fast as I could on the salt flats..Or Death Valley.." she said, thinking of a movie called Vanishing Point. She had seen it with her friends and they had all commented that the ending was exactly what Jamie would have done if the police had tried to block her way and arresting her, restraining her from driving as fast as she had liked. Jamie had to admit, it was the most likely thing she would do. Because if you can't have speed or something you love, what was the point of living? She probably would have done what Kowalski did at the end, driven into the barricades blocking his way and, ultimately, committing suicide...
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Post by Aeryn Black on Apr 29, 2009 13:12:58 GMT -7
like thelma and louise, though we'd have to bring Cameron along cause I couldn't live without him. So riding a car fast even.. hmmmm not bad I think what i'd be doing is..
She for a moment was quiet as she thought about it truly.
for one day just to have everyone I love and care about to be happy. Just for one day take all their pain inside me so they wouldn't feel it. You wouldn't feel bad and Cameron wouldn't be nuts and i'd have renee back.. just for one day is all it'll never happen but that's what i'd do if i could,"
she then relaxed a moment as she smiled bittersweetly.
though I never thought at 22 i'd be here where i am now alone sorta and willing to just grasp at anything he could give me, I always dreamed we'd have gotten married in fact he asked me once, at the time I was crazy enough to say no because i thought he was just trying to get in my pants it was not long after we started dating, but the truth is if i could go back one day i think it would be to stop renee from going to that party and if not that, to marry cameron, knowing what i know now i'd never regret it.
She then tried to think of something happy.
I think what i really would like is one daty where there was no crime, no pain, nothing but love in the world and everyone being happy and i know it;s a pipe dream but yeah that's what i'd like I think.
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