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Post by Aeryn Black on Apr 23, 2009 12:14:25 GMT -7
what? what's the matter? Aeryn asked suddenly concerned as she looked at Jamie.
are you alright then? She asked really concerned a moment.
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Post by Jamie Smith on Apr 23, 2009 12:25:49 GMT -7
Jamie fought to control her emotions for a moment before putting on a grave and serious face. "I think I'm going to need a bigger pair of pants...I could have sworn that I felt my back end grow...maybe even pop a seam' Jamie said, silent for a moment after, before bursting into laughter....
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Post by Aeryn Black on Apr 23, 2009 12:41:11 GMT -7
Aeryn for a moment paused and looked at Jamie and raised an eyebrow then she laughed hard clutching a stich in her side a moment.
She then wiped tears off her cheeks. Happy tears from laughing and it felt good and wonderful to laugh again.
Aeryn then caught her breath and as she did she relaxed a moment.
that was good, and if you do that's fine I'll order you some pants in a bigger size not to worry, as for mine, yeah all to my hips , I could use a little in the butt area to be truthful. She said as she then laughed.
She then grabbed a second cannoli and bit into it.
as long as we don't do this every single day we'll be fine i'll just have to run a little more tomorrow morning is all. She said with a smile.
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Post by Jamie Smith on Apr 23, 2009 18:47:28 GMT -7
Jamie laughed alone with Aeryn. "I'm sorry, I had to do that.." Jamie said, still laughing. "Why thank you, you're too kind," Jamie said jokingly. "Yes, or else the other patients and doctors would wonder why we were both gaining weight at the same time.."
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Post by Aeryn Black on Apr 23, 2009 18:58:17 GMT -7
Let them I really don't care Aeryn smiled then as she then sighed a little.
We should do this once a week, just I don't know hang out. I know that should really sound kinda weird but, I don't just consider you one of my residents anymore I consider you a friend and.. I don't really care who knows it. She said with a smile.
She looked a moment at the last cannoli there and laughed.
you better eat that before i do gain a big fat butt and scare people around here, look here comes Aeryn and her big ass! She joked as she smiled.
I wonder what it would be like, To have a normal family sometimes, knowing mine was far from, just me and Cam and our children, in another life after this one maybe but, I can see it. When we were together we'd argue over even furnishing our fictional house and raising our make believe children, It was nice even if he wanted to rot their minds with comic books, what I wouldn't give for that to actually be watching him read a book to our child, I always wanted that and.. I'll never have it really. I'm sorry just somedays I get like this when I think about all the things I'll never do in my life like have a family. I know i'm still young but I can't see myself wanting to share my life with anyone else and I know that as much as I want a child, I couldn't do it. Not alone and not without..
She then took a napkin and she blew her nose gently a moment.
So otherwise I'm happy really you see that building over there that tall one with the purple hanging from that balcony? that's my apartment, I live very close by . it's nice i wish I could take you there and hang out like real friends get to. Someday we will I believe it. Aeryn smiled at that.
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Post by Jamie Smith on Apr 23, 2009 19:20:26 GMT -7
Jamie nodded, smiling as she finished the first canoli and started on the second one. She nodded again as she listened to Aeryn. "Sometimes I wish I could have been born into a normal family too," she said, looking to where Aeryn pointed. "It looks nice," Jamie said, still smiling a little. "Yeah, maybe one day.." Jamie said, her smile growing a little. "So...did you ride western or english?" Jamie asked curiously..
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Post by Aeryn Black on Apr 23, 2009 19:42:56 GMT -7
both actually i can ride both but prefer western riding, I actually think it looks odd when I do side saddle in jeans. But yes I can do both english and english side saddled.
She smiled as she then finished the canolli and smiled. she then thought about it. same question which have you and do you prefer ? She asked as she just relaxed and looked at her apartment there a moment.
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Post by Jamie Smith on Apr 24, 2009 12:48:49 GMT -7
"Well, I tried jumping in sidesaddle, but didn't do that well. So I moved onto jumpers and cross country and dressage, mostly eventing... That's my best sport, besides archery," Jamie said. "So they have western over in England?" she asked curiously. "I would have thought that it was dominated by English or Dressage.." she said, her eyes bright with curiosity...
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Post by Aeryn Black on Apr 24, 2009 17:50:36 GMT -7
((I actually know very little about horses but will try lol))
My grammama she really wanted me to be as she would say.. a proper young lady and of course I did learn dressage, but I had male cousins and they used to read books and magizines about the american wild west so every so often we'd go out and i'd ride in breeches and jump and do all the western type riding. It was fun. My horse's name was spirit, I neamed her that after looking at her and the name called to me also if i wasn't the one riding her she had a terrible spirit and liked to be a bit aunry.
she then smiled a moment.
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Post by Jamie Smith on Apr 24, 2009 20:02:56 GMT -7
Jamie smiled a little bit. "My horses name was Sultan..I had him since he was a foal. It was ahrd when he went.." Jamie said sadly, thinking of her black horse, remembering the fatal jump for her horse, the almost fatal jump for Jamie herself..
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Post by Aeryn Black on Apr 24, 2009 20:16:00 GMT -7
I'm sorry to hear that Jamie I am, HOw old I mean was it during riding or had he.. If you don't want to talk about it it's ok but I had Spirit up until I was 16 and then all the things happened with Renee and.. My parents sold all the horses and i was off at school much more.
She then grew quiet. It had been years since she had ridden and she thought about it a moment. She wondered if they had stables nearby and if they did and she was pretty sure they must, that maybe she'd look into having a horse boarded. It was true her parents were gone now and she inherited everything even the manor and vacation homes and yacht. She never really used those things and has decided that she would just end up giving them to her children if she ever had any. She knew that BLack manor was huge, she knew she didn't want to live there alone and her home was now New York city, maybe she should just sell it and put the money towards something worthwhile. She somedays thought about that.
She took a sip of her soda as she then asked.
So if you could i mean get back into riding you'd do it in a heart beat wouldn't you? To feel the wind on your hair as you trotted or galloped. That sounds quite good right now though I haven't been in ages. She smiled to herself a moment.
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Post by Jamie Smith on Apr 24, 2009 20:34:22 GMT -7
"We were at an event. We turned the corner. He came down wrong or something, his leg snapped while he tried to stay above me so that I wasn't crushed..He saved me instead of himself..If he had landed a few more inches to the left, I would have died," Jamie said quietly. The red jump, her worst nightmare..The one that she had been sure that they would have gotten over. It looked so simple. None of the riders, not even Jamie, knew that it could be so deadly. "Two more horses went down on that jump too, it was three jumps away from the finish...But they didn't snap their front leg. That fate was saved for Sultan.." Jamie said quietly, a tear slipping from her eye. "We tried everything to save him but the infection spread through the operation wound and in the end I decided that it would be better if we just put him down. He was so hot and the wound was so full of puss. The vet said there wasn't anything we could for him.." she said, her voice trailing off quietly.
Jamie considered the question for a few minutes silently. "I suppose I would, but it wouldn't be like riding Sultan...Then again, nothing would ever be like..it couldn't be..The way he moved..it was like water on land.." Jamie said, a lump growing in her throat. "The last time I rode was right before a big storm. We were coming back from a trail on a horse I had bought for cheap and was trying to sell again after training it a little. It was raining badly..But I loved it... The horse and I were soaked but the way she moved. I was finally getting her to become collected... I got to the barn, which was empty. I was glad there was no one there, I needed time to myself, to be able to think, especially after what had happened a month earlier at the party.. I was stupid, getting so drunk. But I didn't care at the time. Sultan was gone, my friends were off somewhere, making asses of themselves.. Who cared if I got drunk? I certainly didn't..." Jamie said, more tears slipping down her face...
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Post by Aeryn Black on Apr 30, 2009 17:00:14 GMT -7
Awryn had no idea for a moment what to say as she then looked at her cannoli the one untouched and pushed it to Jamie.
I'm sorry She said as she tried to think of something cheerful but knew at the moment she couldn't.
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Post by Jamie Smith on Apr 30, 2009 20:39:32 GMT -7
Jamie rejected the cannoli, shaking her head slightly. "It's not your fault.." she said quietly, wiping the tears off her face quickly, hating how exposed and vulnerable she felt. She shuddered at the thought of what had happened at t he party..and the events after...Those had been the worst days of her life, especially with the consequences of the rape happening.
Jamie picked up an unused napkin, blowing her nose for a second before wiping at her eyes, which had begun to tear up again at the thought of the aftereffects of that almost literally insane party...and the month anf a half that had followed it....
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Post by Aeryn Black on May 6, 2009 20:58:41 GMT -7
Aeryn couldn't help it she went and hugged Jamie as she did she tried to comfort her by rubbing her back.
She wondered if she herself with through the things Jamie did if she would be able to handle it.
She knew that Jamie was handling this better than Renee had done and she was quiet a moment unsure what to say, all her training was gone now and she was left with the compassion of another human soul and of a friend instead.
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